I recently thought I should return to trying to complete a book that I started a few years back, tentatively titled 'On Being'. At the time, life was perhaps a little more idealistic than it is now, and it occured to me whilst reading the document that David Knox had been absolutely spot on in stating it was a dogs dinner of concepts that didn't seem to flow, and worst of all, lacked any point. At the time, I felt it was some great soul searching, and perhaps it was for the level I was at then. But reading it recently just made me realise that the concepts were there, just not really that well thought out, and pretty much most of the text was an entertaining read if you were interested in me, but little more than that. With that in mind, I started rewriting the text from scratch, aiming more at what I was trying to achieve first time around. However, instead of just throwing away what I wrote all together, thought it might make some interested blog fodder, as long as people keep in mind that it is around three to four years old now and, oh my, how things can change.
Had such a busy weekend... getting up early on Saturday to go and do breakfast/lunch with mum and dad, and then heading home in time to fit in a quick haircut and shopping. We then went to see Paul Van Dyk with Jimmy, Michael, Dale and Travis, although I have to admit that it was what I was expecting and I didn't really get into it too much. To be honest, I found the environment perhaps a little too intimidating with the energy... trance/hard house music, which had moments of greatness and then other moments where I thought it sounded like what a dance party in someone's stomach would sound like... very crowded, and very loud... no real chill out space... and lots of straight boys who you wouldn't want to get caught looking too intensely at for fear that they would come over and deck you... in fact, the atmosphere at the whole place was all rather aggressive and I found myself looking at the floor a lot of the time (especially the men's loo's) to ensure I didn't upset anyone. I realised that it was mostly in my own mind, but at the same time, the atmosphere was so foreign to me that I didn't entirely feel comfortable or allowed to be myself. Having said that, most of my friends had a great time (especially Michael, who worships Paul Van Dyk) and to see him spending the entire night on the dancefloor was worth it.
Afterwards, we trailed across town to our usual Market haunt, although horrified to see them charge $15 to get in at such a late hour. Upon leaving, Ant and I went and had a spa to relax a bit, before heading home to bed for most of Sunday. Remarkably, i'm feeling pretty good today, getting up early this morning to do washing and to write my usual Bnews/Melbourne Star music reviews since I hadn't had a chance to do either yesterday. The cats were rather surprised to see me surface so early; Caspar looking at me through squinted eyes as I had clearly woken him earlier than usual from his slumber.
It's been a bit of a slow day at work, which is somewhat appreciated, giving me an opportunity to get across some housecleaning, especially since I suspect a client review is on the horizon. It has been so frantically busy lately that these little breather days are appreciated when they come along, giving me a chance to call clients, check through CV's and get across things I promised people up to several weeks ago.
Ant and I are both wanting a quiet weekend this coming weekend. Ant has been out for the past four weekends in a row, where as i've been out for the last two - which is more than enough for me for the time being. Sounding like a broken record, while i'm not that old, it does seem to take longer for me to recover from a big night out nowadays than what it ever used to, and I hate feeling like crap for most of the week because of a big Saturday night. I've been telling Ant that I would really like us to spend a bit more time at home, saving money and going to gym. We're both really keen to go on a break soon - perhaps to Sydney for a weekend - and this will help achieve that.
Anyway, time to wrap up lunch and get back into it all. Today is just flying by with all of the tasks that I have at hand, but at least my lunch today has given me the opportunity to focus on something other than work for a bit.
